to the richard of past tense

All the pain you are experiencing,
will serve only as preparation
for the inevitable mountain of suffering you will endure
later.

You will not see it coming

there will be signs
you will ignore them

Life will seem perfect
easy
consistent
solid and relatively difficulty free for a number of years

all the things that you resist now but secretly long for will be yours

no other woman will surprise you like your wife does on a daily basis
you will have a job that you actually want to go to
your creative powers will be sharper than the razor blade you carry pinned to your lapel

you will obsess over details

the cavernous void you are carrying wont be as vast
but it will still be there
it probably wont ever go away
but you will have distractions

and eventually life will return to easier
more consistent
and relatively difficulty free
for a number of years

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